Here we go again

Well for those of you who don't know, we are eight weeks pregnant again. And from my calculations the baby is due April 19th. Yes, that's eight days after Mattias' first birthday. Crazy, I know! I phoned to make a doctor's appointment and the earliest they could "squeeze" me in was October 30th. I can't believe how ridiculous that is. I will already be in my second trimester at that point. So, needless to say I am on the lookout for a new doctor. With this pregnancy not planned and so close after the birth of Mattias, I have been worried of the chance of another miscarriage. I know worry doesn't do a thing but easier said then done. I think anyone who has had miscarriages, completely understands. I was hoping to get in to see the doctor sooner to request an early ultrasound to see how the baby was developing and the exact due date. But by the time I get to the doctor and request the ultrasound it will be around the time I normally would have had the ultrasound. So for those of you reading this, please pray that the baby is developing properly and healthy and that God would take this burden I have put on my shoulders. In turn it has sort of made me cut off any emotional attachment. I think I did it subconsciously so that if we did lose the baby, I wouldn't get hurt again! Well so I think anyways. Justin and I are excited about this crazy journey we are embarking and I won't have to buy many maternity clothes considering I am pregnant at the exact same time I was last year. And thinking of the future I have already been thinking of what to do with the crib situation and so on. Remember Mattias will only be a year, maybe not even. Sam was nine days overdue and Mattias was fifteen days early so who knows when this baby will come. As far as how I have been feeling let's just say the thought of any food other then fruits and veg's makes me nauseous. I haven't thown-up yet but if I let myself get hungry, I feel as though I will at any moment. I am extremely thankful for two of the best children anyone could ask for. Sam is more then happy to entertain himself by playing in his room or colouring if I need to settle my tummy by laying down and Mattias...well he still sleeps though the night and naps about seven hours a day. Awesome I know! I will keep you posted how the pregnancy progresses and so on.